HappyWilkie

This is a letter I received in High School from someone that I loved dearly. Needless to say he broke my heart. Not because I was in love with him or anything but because I needed him back then.

Dear Sarah,

   I’d like to apologize for that incident after the movie.  I was acting 
irrational at the time.  I hope you’ll forgive me for it.  I know you’ve 
felt really bad lately, I’m sorry about that.  The stickers you tried to 
place on me, I wouldn’t’ve had a problem if you’d merely asked and let me 
see what they were.  The horn honking, that was the last straw.  You 
behave very differently from me, you’re much wilder, much more 
spontaneous.  I felt, that when you were chasing me, instead of asking me, 
I felt… belittled.  I always try to treat people with respect; this is 
partly why I write to you now. There are other reasons.

   When I started becoming your friend, I was doing it so I could know 
what sort of person my best friend was dating.  I started to trust you, I 
think I still do.  You’re always looking for fun; that is not a bad trait 
at all, I envy you for it.  But I don’t look for fun.  I look for respect. 
That’s a difference.  I realize you weren’t intentionally disrespecting 
me, but I can’t help but feel like that’s what happened.

   You often called me when no one else would hear you, and that was fine 
at first.  but I usually need my solitude.  You interrupted it sometimes; 
I forgive you, for it.  I never lied to you, but I did keep some aspects 
of myself secret.  In case you haven’t noticed, I’m sharing them with you 
now.

   Whenever you needed help, I tried to aid you… but you never fully 
returned the favor.  I realize this is partly my fault, I never asked you 
when I needed help.

    Over the past few months, you’ve kept saying that you thought I hated 
you.  That was a false accusation… mostly.  Every time you said that, I 
felt hurt, and I felt angry.  Over the while, it actually did become true. 
I tried to suppress it, I really did; but it has overwhelmed me now.  I do 
not wish you harm nor bad luck, I also wish there was a way to say this 
without harming you, but I’m afraid there isn’t any other way to say 
this…

   I don’t want to hear from you again.  It’s not that I don’t care, it’s 
that it’d be uncomfortable and just a bad idea.  I’ll still ask ******* how 
you’re doing once in a while; I might even help you if your situation is 
dire… Please don’t try to contact me unless your need is truly great.

    It was nice to know you.  I hope your life will be fulfilling and 
comfortable.  You shared many secrets with me along the way; I will keep 
them quiet and hold them dear till the day I finally die.  I hope you’ll 
do the same.  I always tried, and will continue, to never say anything bad 
about you, nor listen to any of it.  I hope you’ll do the same.

  It has been nice knowing you; and I’m truly sorry I’ve caused you such 
pain.  I always figured we’d just fade away, not explode apart.  I hope 
this doesn’t shock you.  I told you long ago that we wouldn’t be friends 
forever; I just didn’t know when it’d end.

 So this is goodbye.

I find shelter in this way
Under cover, hide away
Can you hear when I say
I have never felt this way

Maybe I had said something that was wrong
Can I make it better with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said something that was wrong
Can I make it better with the lights turned on

Can I be, was I there
It felt so crystal in the air
I still want to drown whenever you leave
Please teach me gently how to breathe

And I’ll cross oceans like never before
So you can feel the way I feel it too
And I’ll send images back at you
So you can see the way I feel it too

Maybe I had said something that was wrong
Can I make it better with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said something that was wrong
Can I make it better with the lights turned on

Feet don’t fail me now
Take me to the finish line
All my heart, it breaks every step that I take
But I’m hoping that the gates, they’ll tell me that you’re mine
Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design?
I feel so alone on a Friday night
Can you make it feel like home?
If I tell you you’re mine
It’s like I told you, honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
So, choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

Lost
But now I am found
I can see
But once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Tryna take what I could get
Scared that I couldn’t find
All the answers, honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
So, choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

We were born to die
We were born to die

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh,
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
So, choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

We were born to die