HappyWilkie

I know that your heart is breaking

Baby is your soul aching?

Please don’t forget about me

I want you to be happy

Carry my love in your pocket

You Hold my heart in your hand

Please baby please don’t drop it

Carry my love in your pocket

I can see it in your eyes

You’re patiently waiting to die

My love please don’t think like that

Baby, I know where you’re at

Carry my love in your pocket

Hold my heart in your hand

Please baby please don’t drop it

Carry my love in your pocket

I see the tears that you cry

I hear the lies that you lie

You’re not okay

I see that your heart is haunted

But don’t give in that easily

Please hold on to my love

Carry my love in your pocket

Whenever you need me I’ll be there

Please baby please your worth it

Carry my love in your pocket

 I’ll be uploading it to YouTube soon!

The worst thing in the world is being bestfriend-less. 

There is no one to talk to. No shoulder to cry on. There is no one to hold you when you need a hug. It’s lonely and horrible and no matter who you become friends with…they just aren’t your best friend. I feel..alone and misunderstood. I feel like I have no one. It’s not a comforting place to be. I hope that all that read this understand that I have friends whom I love VERY much…but it’s not the same as having that one person who knows everything about you. I don’t want to start all over. It’s too hard to let someone in like that, and the last person that I tried that with turned out to be the biggest douche bag I had ever met and tried to use my pain and suffering against me. 

Someone…PLEASE be my best friend so I don’t have to feel like this anymore.

I was just thinking…what if I wrote like 800 blogs a day?

Hmmm…I’m having a weird day today. I have TONS to do…and I’m just not feeling it. I have to write a paper…study for my tests ( I have 3 on Monday) and I have a ton of reading to do. 

::sigh::

HELP.

YouTube has changed my life. I get to sing, talk about my life, and just be myself. Through YouTube I have discovered many new friends/people.

Take Genna for instance. Her YouTube channel started as covers of Paramore songs…but now she does these amazing in-depth vlogs about issues that effect people like depression. She also sees beauty in people and the world. Her blog is full of photos of things that a normal person wouldn’t take 2 seconds to notice. She cares about everyone and will stop at nothing to try to make someone feel special/loved. She’s a wonderful person and I’m glad that I can actually call her my friend.

Next we have 5AG. I love all of them! Don’t get me wrong…but Korey is such an inspiration to many gays out there. From what I understand (correct me if I’m wrong) he got an idea for this channel to talk about being gay and what it’s like to BE gay. It’s a beautiful concept. They have had their ups and downs…but for the most part they are amazing. Another member of this group is Tyler Oakley. He works with the Trever Project and makes amazingly silly videos and also has some AMAZING t-shirts that I recommend everyone have. Then we have Joe aka: Joseph Birdsong, aka: Disneykid1. He has a blog here on Tumblr and he also does his own videos…He’s awesome…and I’d like to mention that I like his addiction to Pokemon and Boones Farm. The other 2 in the group are Micheal and Johnee. From what I know, Micheal works for a couple of reality shows and I’m not sure what Johnee does…but he has a ton of tweets about working in an office and the air conditioner works too well? HA!  

YouTube has become a way of expression and I love it for that reason alone. There are some people on YouTube who have gained fame and feel that they need to be assholes. I could NEVER do that. EVER. The people who watch my videos are amazingly special and I just can’t imagine me ever not wanting to talk to them. I honestly wish that “fame” had guidelines…like “If you are a GIANT douchebag, you can’t gain fame.” I know that’s not possible but I hate it when people aren’t treated how they should be treated. I fell literal PAIN when I find out that a “celebrity” has snubbed one of their fans. 

Sometimes I just want to go and find celebritys and shake them while yelling “LOOK HERE YOU SCUM! IF IT WEREN’T FOR YOUR FANS YOU WOULDN’T BE HERE!” But sadly I can’t. I would end up with a restraining order and I would probably do some jail time…with that being said…

FANS NEED TO BACK THE FUCK OFF! If you want to be treated with respect then stop acting like morons! Don’t slap celebs in the face and DON’T stalk them! It’s just creepy! We get that you are excited about things…but sheesh! Calm down!

Obsession is not cute.

Anyway back to YouTube…

I wish that I got more feedback. So far I have 577 subscribers…and only a few of them ever give feedback. I don’t know if what I’m doing is good…or bad…or what. But I feel that with more feedback I would be a better YouTuber. Anyway…I’m starting to lose my train of thought…I think it’s time to go. 

Thank you for reading/watching,

Sarah Michelle.

I have 99 followers on twitter. If you are my 100th subscriber I’ll send you some sunglasses.

I got my 100th follower!

I have 125. -6/4/2011

curiousben:

to just grab a guitar and walk away from everything. I’d love to just fuck off somewhere and see what happens, even if it means living off nothing. So much at the moment is just pissing me off and I just want to get away, grow a beard, cover myself in tattoos and make music that you’ll remember meaning something to you, even when you’re 50.

Do it babe! I’ll still be here for you. It sounds like you need a change…and sometimes you just gotta do it. Look at me…I moved across the country and i’m doing very well…it’s not always going to be peaches and rainbows…but if you are unhappy you should have the right to find it…wherever it may be. Take your guitar, some PB&J, and some clean underwear and just GO. Even if it’s just for a week. You will be extremely happy with the results. Sometimes getting away is what we all need. I love you Benny…even if I don’t know you on a personal level.  

tyleroakley:

Fo sho!

Since I have a long break in between classes I thought I would update my blog…

Im currently sitting in the library eating a subway sandwich, reading over notes for sociology class and listening to Emarosa. All in all it’s a good day.

Yesterday I had some kind of crazy epiphany… Let’s me give you a little back story before I begin.

When I was 10 years old I joined a Christian group called “Kings Kids”. While I was involved in this group I was introduced to some really great people 4 of which I still have minimal contact with. One of these people is named April. She was a mentor in ways. She was always willing to listen and she was a wonderful person. 2 days ago I discovered her blog. She has been working in Cambodia with young girls who are victims of rape and sex trafficking. As I was reading her blog (last night until like 2 AM) I decided I needed to be more like her. Willing to help someone no matter the cost (she keeps getting lice from hugging these poor girls).

What if I took myself more seriously? What it I just decided one day that I wanted to go and help the youth of the world? Then it hit me… I did decide that! I have a YouTube channel that is supposed to be dedicated to helping youth no matter how small or large the problem is. Also, I decided to go to school to be a teacher.

Yesterday while I was driving home I decided that I needed to be myself again. It’s time to be who I was meant to be. I need to proud of what I believe and I need to make sure that others know it as well.

A week ago or so I said that I was going to post old journal entries…I have decided to forgo that endeavor and start fresh. Start new. While my writing skills are limited, I feel that I will be able to get my points across.

This will be my journey into adulthood. It will be a new chapter of my life. I write down every thought I have about life, love, and school here. I will keep myself from going back to what used to be and I will strive to be a better me.

So, I’d like to say thank you to April for inspiring me to be me again.

The one and only,
Sarah Michelle Wilkie-Moore

gennargh:

My brother is in the shower and he is singing friday, lol, i can hear you

LMFAO.